No wait, because she looks at the map that Steve was looking at and she IMMEDIATELY knows what he’s going to do and WHAT’S MORE she doesn’t run to him at say “You can’t Steve it’s too dangerous!” She runs to him and says “don’t be an idiot you can’t walk there LET ME HELP YOU STEAL A PLANE” and that is why Peggy is the best the end.
#no but her and steve getting into all kinds of trouble#what rogers? you’re about to do something highly dangerous?#here let me streamline the process#let’s fuck shit up together for the good of humanity#modern au peggy making a protest twice as large#crime au peggy taking him from small time grifts to robbing the mob#steve wants to be a drag racer and peggy’s like no#take my car it’ll be faster#i bet bucky doesn’t approve of this at all#omg bucky is the hermione of the group as far as shenanigans go#he stills goes along with them but mutters about them getting into trouble#and it’s dark out we’re going to get detention#detention steve!
perfect tags are pref
Nobody ever teaches you how to deal with drunk pining artists.
Steve name me one time between Basic and going into the ice that you actually followed orders. ONE. TIME.
I have feelings about this. I’m supposed to be doing work, but its hard, so I’m gonna explain them instead. Right from the start of CA:TFA we see that Steve really specifically wants to be a soldier. He knows there’s all sorts of various ways to support the war effort, but not, specifically he wants to fight on the front lines.
But Steve is never a particularly good soldier, in fact, he very specifically isn’t a good soldier. Steve is a good man not a perfect soldier. Steve NEVER has any success when he tries his hand at being a regular soldier, or even a supersoldier. In CA:TFA he ends up working with the Howling Commandos, almost entirely outside of the regular military structure and that’s when he manages all the serious heroics and really lives up to his potential. In Avengers at the beginning he tries to be a good soldier for a while and tries to follow Fury’s orders, but for the first half of the movie Steve is lost and miserable and visibly hiding behind his USO Tour “Captain America” persona. But its only when he goes off on his own, breaks into store rooms and steals Fury’s proto-type tesseract weapons, that he really gets anything done (before that he gets batted about by Loki and sort of wanders about at loose ends), and he doesn’t really get back into a leadership role and really become actual Captain America again, until he steals a quinn jet with Natasha and Clint.
And despite that, in CA:WS he’s back at Shield, trying to be ‘the greatest soldier in history’ and ‘follow orders’, and… not doing that at all…
So where does Steve’s abortive fascination with being a good soldier come from?
Partly I think its an expression of his very obvious depression. I’ve seen about umpteen criticisms of Steve’s ‘we have our orders’ line to Tony in Avengers but I think that the fact its out of character is the point. Steve is miserable, and lost, he doesn’t know what makes him happy, he doesn’t know what he wants to do with himself so he follows Nick Fury’s orders, because he has given up.
But also I think that even though Steve doesn’t really want to be the sort of person who follows orders, he to a certain extent wants to want it, sort of as the equivalent of a very bright girl who plays dumb in class because she’s been told no one likes smart girls. The good soldier is very much the model of ideal masculine success that Steve would have grown up with but wouldn’t have ever been able to achieve
Which is ironic given that the ideal male icon most of the cast of the Avengers probably grew up with… is Captain America.
The world has decided that Captain America is, in fact, a good soldier who follows orders and serves, and Captain America has swallowed Steve Rogers whole and Steve doesn’t have the strength to claw his way back out anymore. He doesn’t see a point. There is no one in the present who wants Steve Rogers around, not when they could have Captain America instead. No, not even Peggy. She says she wishes Steve could’ve lived his life but he’s telling her he wants out and she calls him dramatic and shuts him down. He picked his words so carefully, he kept his mask up the whole goddamn time and threw in a ‘nbd’ smile on at the end and still he wasn’t heard, and it doesn’t even surprise him. He’s like welp, should’ve known better.
Steve would be a good soldier if he could. He’s been trying for two years, but he’s still picking fights with his boss and taking unnecessary risks and fucking up missions because he can’t turn down a challenge. He knows his own morals don’t align with Shield’s, with Fury’s, but he’s tried to tamp the suspicion down and turn the other way, turn a blind eye so he can keep listening to the orders, to trust enough to serve, he just can’t. He can’t, its not who he is, he knows this isn’t right, but he has nothing else. He has literally nothing else. Without Shield he’d have to start all over and that’s more terrifying than the moral grays. At least the moral grays come with purpose and the chance to vent his frustrations on people he can half-way convince himself are in the wrong.
Steve isn’t happy with himself and he probably hates that he’s making these compromises, that he isn’t doing enough, that he isn’t saying enough and isn’t saying it sooner and yeah he’s challenging Fury on Project Insight but there’s shit before that he just let slide, and that was his choice, and he did it for himself, because it was what was easier, and that is selfish and wrong of him, he just doesn’t have the strength or security or courage to fight all the time anymore.
Just…Steve doesn’t know who he is anymore. He’s not Captain America—that persona was given to him prepackaged and taken away, repackaged and redefined by an entire country over nearly 70 years, he can’t be that person, that person is fictitious, they do not exist—but he’s not that kid from Brooklyn anymore, either. That kid wouldn’t have let this shit slide and he knows it. That kid would’ve set his jaw and found a way around this bullshit and done everything to make things right, and maybe he’s romanticizing his past thinking that way, but even if that kid made compromises to protect himself, they never affected as many people as the compromises he’s making now.
His ma would be so disappointed. Bucky would be so disappointed. But they aren’t here. There’s no one to call him on making these wrong choices, no one who knows him well enough to see how he’s floundering, no one who knows this isn’t like him to care what other people think, to change himself to try and become what they’re expecting him to be. Sam is the first one to even consider the possibility that Captain America may not want to be Captain goddamn America. The first one. In two years. And at this point, Steve honestly doesn’t know how to respond to that. He’s internalized what’s expected of him to the point he can’t even give an honest answer to the question of if he wants out. “No.” he says, and then has to double back with the fucking truth because Captain America has eaten him fucking whole and he doesn’t know who the fuck he is anymore.
Cold, cold, cOLD COLD.
Bucky knows Steve can pull off a scarf 365 days of the year as ‘having a cold’ and no one will suspect a thing
I just happened to be looking at a particular jewellery website and suddenly I’ve picked out an engagement ring and two options for wedding rings
I don’t even want to get married?????
Thanks so much for raving about The Ark on your blog sometimes!! I wouldn't have heard more of their songs if it weren't for you :D I remembered their eurovision song but hadn't heard the others. I really really love them! So thanks a lot! — Anonymous
you are very welcome! i’m only too happy to spread the ark love around.
aaand because we’re here, let’s have one of my favourite songs:
this week on tumblr: everyone realizes how much of a badass neville was all along
and maybe finally realizing that Snape was a complete asshole not a misunderstood man
Neville Longbottom: He woulda done it in 4 books
Also pointing out: Snape was an asshole to Neville because of his obsession with Lilly. He was pissed off Voldemort chose Harry rather than Neville.
Snape tortured two young boys because of an obsession with a dead, married woman.
Also: a dead married woman who turned him down when she was alive
A dead married woman who turned him down when she was alive because he went from being a supportive friend to a vicious asshole who joined a terrorist organization dedicated to eradicating her and she got fed the fuck up with his shit
#later he redeemed himselfy by#um#well#uh#hmm
it’s back and I’m happy
albus severus you were named after two shitheads, i dont really know what i was thinking
signs secret abilities
- aries: can write rlly cute poems
- taurus: amazing at putting together ikea furniture
- gemini: best mac and cheese maker around
- cancer: can decorate cakes really good
- leo: photoshop expert
- virgo: can memorize song lyrics in a flash
- libra: great at finding four leaf clovers
- scorpio: super good with makeup
- sagittarius: can take really pretty photos
- capricorn: expert tree climber
- aquarius: awesome at giving speeches
- pisces: can beat any and every video game
There was a suggestion made by pcturtl that Steve could have switched places with his preserum self - So younger Bucky’s suddenly after acquiring a levelled up version of his bestie.
And WS Bucky who was in the midst of his mission, got lumped with sickly Steve.
So he’s aware that this is still the mission. But it’s voided if the mission dies from whatever wealth of ailments this kid seems to be suffering from. I also imagine that Steve is triggering all kinds of flashbacks for Bucky.
And younger Bucky is probably like *________* ”You look cold. Want to use me as a blanket?”
if there is one thing i will NEVER forgive the hp movies for doing is when in the sectumsempra scene, in the book harry is literally on the verge of tears with guilt and shock and drops to his knees next to draco and hes like trying to cough out some sort of reasoning
and in the movies hes just like :)#EXACTLY #HOW COULD THEY DO THAT HARRY WOULD NEVER ACT LIKE THAT BECAUSE HARRY WAS BRAVE AND AMAZING #ALSO WHEN DUMBLODRE DIED IN THE BOOKS HARRY WAS UNDER A SPELL AND COULDNT MOVE IN THE MOVIES HE WAS JUST STANDING THERE AND DOING NOTHING WHAT THE FUCK (viajessepinkmqn)
can we also talk about how movie!harry made few mistakes, especially in the DH movies? where was the scene where harry crucios the carrows? where is the scene where harry imperios a person in the ministry to go hide (to never be found again)? harry is not a saint and he used two unforgivables and in DH, in contrast to HBP (sectumsempra scene) as far as i recall he does not care. but the movies didn’t show that. can’t have the hero make such severe mistakes, he’s a hero don’t you know??? hero’s don’t do that sort of thing, no nope